Someone finally asked what was wrong with me.

And I told them exactly what it was.

This was their response, “Jason, you are one of the most incredible people ever. You have such a good heart (although some may not know it) you are an amazing friend and you’ve gotten me through so much with your kind, wise words. Thank you. I hope I made you feel somewhat better. No one, especially you, deserves to feel like that.”

To feel insignificant. Unnoticed. Unimportant.

But, when you don’t have many friends like I do, losing them is the worst thing to ever happen to you, short of death. Its that much more percent gone from your already shitty percentage.

My best friend at work, Derrick, was fired yesterday. I don’t have anyone else that I actually talk to and know left there. Its getting more and more horrendous as each day passes. I don’t have that much time left…

It is all piling up. Not to mention I don’t know if I want that back, I’ve been hurt too many times by it. I never did anything to deserve this. I’ve always been the nice guy about everything…

Sorry…I’ll stop now. I have to get up soon. Go back to…whatever’s next…